Trust Birth Conference

March 6-8th, Redondo Beach, 2008

The conference has been awesome so far =) Listening to these amazing women and men (i.e. Michel Odent) speak has been so eye opening, inspiring and emotional. Hearing all the stories of joy and heartache, the passion in their lives radiates from them and is incredibly contagious.

I am constantly conflicted. Hearing of all the hard work, all the responsibility, all of the risk and insurance issues, it is really daunting. But then, hearing about the joy, the changing of lives, the helping, saving, sharing. Seeing the light in their eyes, knowing and understanding. It pulls me, urges me, draws me in closer. And i truly feel it is something i cannot avoid.

It terrifies me in a way that overwhelms my whole body and spirit. If i jump, that's exactly what it is. Right now as a doula i'm still safe. Tip-toeing around the edge, looking in, listening, curious... But when i jump in there's no going back. It's a whole new life, and i think it... i know it will change me forever, but in a wonderful way.

Is it time to jump? Time to become and active participant in this revolution. Time to work in away that i never have before. Work that i'm passionate about and that really makes a difference. I don't know.